SELFCAGED – 1995
1. VANISHED
Convalescent livid we succumb
Stagnation now complete
This is the new plague called unconsciousness
We’re selfcaged in defeat
Clotted minds coagulate
We are trapped inside the tears
We obey, resignate to our self-inflicted fears
Voices calm will be never heard
In this mode who will change
Bantised in our minds so absurd
Is this the world sublime
Into pools of paranoia we’re fading with reality
Drained by lies we are all inhuman,
introspective vanishing
Sterile thoughts now upraised in subhuman majesty
Bodies numb still enchained
Where am I, in hell of our dreams
Wrong wrong i’m in the now the vain reality
So it seems we’re dying yet content
Worship our chrysalis stage
Since when are lies divine
Since when
This is now degrade indulge
This is us servile obliging
Swallowed by our hunger for mendacity
as this dance whirls deeper into hate
We’re vanishing
In down deep, cold where am I
Caught caged trapped not in dreams
Now time has killed our eyes
Fall, fade, gone, dead, away
2. SUFFER IN TRUTH
Tortured soul ripping skin into ashes
blind by pain, deaf by lies
Smell of freedom violently cuts forgiveness,
power to a being never dies
Suffer in truth’s narrow passage saw
Weak solutions stabbed to not know
the smile of obliterations face
Penetrating through the void of life
A dance with the dead
Buried in oblivion stolen from the mind
Constant starving never fed
Contaminated life is fading
laughing in my face
Suffer in deception, manipulated not to feel
Slain beliefs, abandoned dreams, a life of misery
Suffer in truth
The wounds of a soul in pain, a mirror of life
Dreams all in vain
Life will always be sealed
I see… unseen
I feel… unseen
Suffer in truth
3. INSIDE WHAT’S WITHIN BEHIND
I can’t run away from the thing in me
I’m weakening down another now developing within
I can feel it it’s inside my head
Connected to my brain this other me is slowly taking over
Deep beneath the eye that all can see
Energetic visions of the one I know myself to be
Look into my eyes
Don’t listen to their lies
How can I stop this from being real
No my life will be no longer what it always used to be
Life neglected, infected by strain
I fall into the smothering the even flow of ravaging pain
This my temple of selfcaged contempt
A body slowly pierced by inevitable me
Do I differ from yourself
Am I like they say, the truth eventually
I’m the one you wanna be
Can you feel the same as I, another inside
Pushing to free itself from the chains of the soul
Turn your eyes toward the inside
Dig deep within i’m sure you’ll find
A different self a different soul
To put you in peace with mind
4. GODS OF RAPTURE
I feel torn apart, a vile misfit fallen
Deep into affliction of my hollow mind
The sense of suffocation grows inside my lungs
When I wake into truth i’m back among the blind
The truth of lies disenchanting my eyes
How can I survive, I can’t stand being alive
Gods of rapture enshrouding my eyes
A try to hide that slowly I die
My past laugh at me from the other side of negation
Untying the lasting few cords of common sense
Submerged into the flow, the rapids of addiction
Too weak to push it back, a worm without defence
My flesh fading, undressing the bones
Behold me naked, cadaver exposed
This my abuse, I can’t take it no more
The fragile truth sneering at me with teeth pressed
Like thrusting nails into my head
All my life I regret
